i dont like waking up with a headache. that's the worst - but it went away after much needed medicine :) so i have this crush and of course he doesnt know it b/c that would defeat the purpose of having a crush. i know that nothing will come of it b/c i am sure that he will find someone else. people say "dont say that" or "you dont know that" but yes i do. let's all face the truth here...if you are a female and you dont have a butt/breasts pole thin then men will love you. but if you are overweight or have a little too much of either then the dont tend to flock to you as much as the super model skinny tiny female. thats just the truth. so that's why i say this. you dont see many guys with an ugly female. or even if the female is cute but overweight yeah you dont see that. but the guy can be butt ugly and he will have some pole thin girl by his side. the truth. you all have seen it. so that's why i say this. i find him adorable. but i decided to lay off and not try to flirt a little just because i believe that someone must have told him. i let it out a little too much at work.
so long story short he doesnt work with me but he with his line of work he does come by. kinda like a Pharmaceutical rep's job. i got his schedule down so i know when he is coming typically. dont want him to see a bad hair day. so i have missed him the past month b/c i was out when he was here...so i am going to lay off when he comes. he should come this week. he makes me tongue tied when i 1st speak to him. that's just embarrassing. no other way to put it. and i caaaant stand it b/c i NEVER get tongue tied. oh well just i'll just continue living my boring single life. this sucks!
